I saw my Dr yesterday it has been four weeks since my fill. He was very pleased with my progress and being down 20 pounds. He was a little concerned at first that I was eating. I advised him that I am and I am having no issues. My restriction is very good right now. He told me I would not need to come back until November and my bandiversary. I was happy to hear that, and to see that I am on the right track once again.
His last words to me were be sure you exercise. I told him I was headed to the gym from his office. I went and walked three miles. I felt very good. I hate that I wasted so much time of my journey. I know that if I had not done that, I would be at goal and that is what makes me so angry at myself.
For those of you who are struggling or just beginning take it from me, there is no failure when the band is still inside of you. It is never too late to turn the ship around and head back in the right direction. We all get off course in our lives for one reason or another. I realize now I made a fatal mistake when I stopped weighing myself and also when I allowed the bad foods back into my life, my triggers so to speak. We all have them, we all know what they are for us. For me it was eating things that would slide easily through my band. Ice cream, candy bars, cookies, chips, I had allowed this stuff to creep back in and fell victim to the sabatoors who would say "just once won't kill you." Well they were wrong. I will not allow them to get to me anymore.
I was afraid when I began this blog, what if no one reads it. So what if they don't. I will have a great journal of all that I have gone through and my transformations when I am done and that will be enough for me.
If by chance it is read and I help one other person stay on course, or get back on course, then my blog will have been worth it.