Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Back to work and working out!
Yesterday back at work I was swamped. My new job has me hopping, but I love it. I no longer dread coming to work, and I do not find myself watching the clock any longer. I feel very blessed.
I feel guilty because with Thanksgiving and Cole being sick I did not work out.... not once. I am heading to the gym tonight and I am anxious to get my buns back in gear once again. I know that my body is craving it because I am beginning to get that tired feeling. You know the one, the one from sitting on your "ASS"! The one I had for most of my adult life.
Working out is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Sometimes it is hard to get yourself to go, but I have never not ONCE regretted it once I am done. I always feel 100% better for going.
Someone at work, is counting the days til Christmas. She has this nifty little sign that changes numbers each day. I am almost done shopping so I am ready whenever it gets here. I am enjoying my decorations so it can take its time. I am sure by New Years that I will be ready to have them down and put away and my house back!
I did some shopping at Kohl's on Monday with my Kohl's cash from my Christmas shopping on Saturday. I had $150 to spend and it was exciting. I bought a pair of Lauren Conrad leggings in size L...can you freaking believe it a size L. (I had purchased XL a week before and they swam on me and I could pull them up to nearly under my boobs, Nichole said you need a smaller size so a size L). I was so pumped by this.
I also got a Sweater dress from Elle and one from Daisy Fuentes and I love them both. Nichole called me a "skinny bitch"! Lovingly of course. I know that I am far from skinny but I am beginning to feel good about how I am looking again. My most prized purchase was an Apt 9 black sleeveless wrap around dress from the clearance rack for $16.90. It fit me so perfectly. I mean really, a wrap around dress that was not in the "big girl" section (do they even make wrap around dresses in those sizes)? Do you know how long it has been since I did not have to shop in the "big girl" part of the store. Well, none of anything I got was from there. I can kiss that part of my shopping from days gone by "ta ta"! Good rid dens and I am not sorry to see it go.
I feel good about the work I have done since July 5th and that fill. I know that I can complete this journey now, and that I am not on a time table. I think that when I lightened up on attacking myself for not making certain weights by certain dates, that things have sort of fell into place for me.
I am making healthy choices 95% of the time, and I am following the band rules and Commandments that I like to call them. I know that by doing this, I WILL be successful. I just cannot let the "excuse ass" get back in the door.
I think that is why my body is changing, because my mind is also healthy. I am happy, and I feel good about myself, exactly the way I am right now. I am still fat!!!!!!!!! However, I can honestly say, that I am happy, because I know that being skinny is NOT what is going to bring me happiness. I love that I have learned this. Without this knowledge, I would still be beating up myself and my self esteem, which is a huge commitment and confidence crusher in my humble opinion. It is what lead me to fall off the proverbial wagon!
Liquids are going semi OK, I did eat some turkey chili for supper last night, but I was hungry. So I do not feel bad about doing it. I have told myself if you are hungry, then eat. If not, then don't. It is working very well. I am getting lots and lots of water in this time.
I love my MIO!! It has made sticking with drinking my water easier than ever. My favorite is the Berry Pomegranate...YUM! I will not drink anything that has aspartame in it ever again or eat for that matter. I proved to myself over the past four years that it causes us to crave carbs. When I stopped drinking crystal light, I was no longer hungry between meals, when I stopped chewing gum laid en with it, I was no longer hungry between meals. I have been using MIO for over 5 months and it does not increase my cravings one little bit. Yeah for me!
I have done posts on the importance of water, and why you have to drink water to be healthy and to lose weight. I know that WATER is one of the keys to success!
I am looking forward to ZUMBA tonight!