Friday, March 16, 2012
32 years....no band...and feeling better!
Yesterday was my 32nd wedding anniversary to Alan. Hard to believe all we have been through together in that amount of time.
I am healing, slowly but healing. I had a really rough few days as I could not sleep very well, and that makes for a really bad recovery. I was sick from the pain meds and so that made it hard to take them. I am allergic to almost all pain medicine so it is really hard. I am finally not in pain as I was, it is now horrible soreness.
I must admit that I never had any of this with the band placement nor with my gall bladder removal that happened a year after the band. I know I am older, but still WOW!
I mentioned to you all about the fact that I am unsure if I want another procedure and I am leaning towards that I do not. I saw the Nurse Practioner at my Dr office last Thursday before I had surgery. She and I talked for over an hour about everything. I cried, she listened. Then she said that she definitely would steer me away from any more surgery at this time. She would never suggest that I have BYPASS as she said she sees the train wrecks from this surgery. She told me that the malabsorption of Calcium alone is awful not to mention the iron deficiencies as well. She said that I have proven that I can lead a healthy life as I have been doing it, she thinks I just need help with hunger. So she wants to try a new drug that works on the hunger center of the brain. She said it is very safe and non addictive. I am willing to try it.
I have to say I am in no hurry to go back under a knife. Since they would not do revision when they took out the band, I am hesitant. So for now, I am going to not do revision.
I am going to see how I can do without it. I believe that I do know all of the right things I need to do and I that I was living the life. I never imagined when I got banded that I would be the woman who regained most of the weight she lost, nor the woman who after taking good care of her band that she would over night have a problem and lose the band. I will tell you that my pain is completely resolved in my chest. So it was my band. I have no searing burning between my breasts anymore. I have no golf ball feeling in my throat either. I am glad they are gone.
I want to work out so bad, I miss it terribly. I am going to be hitting it hard once I am healed enough to do so. I am done feeling sorry for myself. I did that for about 10 days there were I was crying and just not being very positive. I allowed all of the negativity around losing my band to scare the hell out of me. I know that the band is only 10% at most of this. I am the majority of the success. I have to follow the life and eat and exercise correctly and I will see my goal. I regained 7 pounds since being unfilled. So now, it is time to get back in the game.
I am grateful to all of you who have written and called and let me know how much support I truly have in all of you. You are all the best, and I love you.