I went to a seminar along with my husband who supported me completely. He does not have a weight problem and he stood beside me in the decision to stop the madness. I saw The bariatric program through OSF is phenomenal. Great instructions, nutritionist, and group support meetings. I lost 80 pounds in the first 12 months. I was on cloud nine.
I began leading the support group for Lap Band patients, and I was heading toward my goal. I did not think anything could derail me. Wrong Again! Life interjects sometimes, and throws us a curve ball.
My daughter went through a divorce and she and her two boys moved in. My workouts that I was religious about doing came to a screeching halt. I felt the increases of stress, and I began to eat around my band. I had my first fill 12 months after getting my band. I was one of the lucky ones, who had restriction from the get go. I have a Allergan LapBand 4cc. I had 2cc placed in it 12 months out. I was tight, I had difficulty eating meat, and vegetables. I did not want to have any removed I was scared to, so I began to eat things that were easy to get through my band. Things I knew better about. This went on for another 12 months, and slowly that "crap" came back into my diet. Junk Food that I know better than to eat. I stopped weighing, I stopped doing all the things that I knew that I should be doing. I stopped going to my surgeon, I was embarrassed I did not want him to see me fail. The weight started coming back on.
Then I looked at myself in the mirror and said WOW, Kristin how could you put back on that weight. I had regained 50+ pounds. I was humiliated. I felt like a failure. I sought out a counselor, and began therapy. I made the decision to get back on track with my band. I knew the power of the tool that I had been given and I was determined this time to make it work and see it through.
Then I found this wonderful Blogger, Catherine55 and I read everyone of her posts and her success with her band and I got inspiration from her. She is an amazing woman and I have never even met her. She gave me the confidence in her blog to dust off and begin a new.
So here I am.....ready to hit head on this weight loss for the last time in my life. I have removed the triggers from my house. I have gotten back into the gym and walking. I have set some goals, both short term and long term ones.
This is me before I hit my heaviest weight in 1997.
This is me before my surgery still not at my heaviest though I am heading there quickly
This is me still not at my heaviest but close I packed on additional 25 pounds after my second grandson Cole was born in October 2006. I would be banded one year later.
I hate pictures of myself and I will try and make sure that I take many pictures on my journey this time. I have my day of surgery picture and I carry it with me in my purse. It is suppose to remind me of where I was and that I do not want to go back there again.
I know that I can do this and I will succeed.