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Saturday, July 30, 2011

November 9, 2007

This was the day that changed my life.  I have  struggled with my weight since I had my first child.  I was not heavy until then.  I have yo-yo dieted most of my adult life.  I was tired of trying every diet imaginable.  I was lucky I had begun a new job with a fantastic Hospital and the insurance their would pay for my banding.

I went to a seminar along with my husband who supported me completely.  He does not have a weight problem and he stood beside me in the decision to stop the madness.  I saw The bariatric program through OSF is phenomenal.  Great instructions, nutritionist, and group support meetings.  I lost 80 pounds in the first 12 months.  I was on cloud nine.

I began leading the support group for Lap Band patients, and I was heading toward my goal.  I did not think anything could derail me.  Wrong Again!  Life interjects sometimes, and throws us a curve ball.

 My daughter went through a divorce and she and her two boys moved in.  My workouts that I was religious about doing came to a screeching halt.  I felt the increases of stress, and I began to eat around my band.  I had my first fill 12 months after getting my band.  I was one of the lucky ones, who had restriction from the get go.  I have a Allergan LapBand 4cc.  I had 2cc placed in it 12 months out.  I was tight, I had difficulty eating meat, and vegetables.  I did not want to have any removed I was scared to, so I began to eat things that were easy to get through my band.  Things I knew better about.  This went on for another 12 months, and slowly that "crap" came back into my diet.  Junk Food that I know better than to eat.  I stopped weighing, I stopped doing all the things that I knew that I should be doing. I stopped going to my surgeon, I was embarrassed I did not want him to see me fail. The weight started coming back on.

Then I looked at myself in the mirror and said WOW, Kristin how could you put back on that weight.  I had regained 50+ pounds. I was humiliated.  I felt like a failure.  I sought out a counselor, and began therapy.  I made the decision to get back on track with my band.  I knew the power of the tool that I had been given and I was determined this time to make it work and see it through.

Then I found this wonderful Blogger, Catherine55 and I read everyone of her posts and her success with her band and I got inspiration from her.  She is an amazing woman and I have never even met her.  She gave me the confidence in her blog to dust off and begin a new.

So here I am.....ready to hit head on this weight loss for the last time in my life.  I have removed the triggers from my house.  I have gotten back into the gym and walking.  I have set some goals, both short term and long term ones.

This is me before I hit my heaviest weight in 1997.

This is me before my surgery still not at my heaviest though I am heading there quickly

This is me still not at my heaviest but close I packed on additional 25 pounds after my second grandson Cole was born in October 2006.  I would be banded one year later.

I hate pictures of myself and I will try and make sure that I take many pictures on my journey this time.  I have my day of surgery picture and I carry it with me in my purse.  It is suppose to remind me of where I was and that I do not want to go back there again.

I know that I can do this and I will succeed.


Justawallflower said...

Hello! Stephanie sent me over, and I am happy to read your story. It is proof that just having a lap band will not get you to where you need to be. There is still a lot of hard work that needs to be done. And seeing someone who worked so hard, then lost sight, but has not given up entirely, it is nice to know that you can find you way back.

Kristin50 said...

I am glad you are here. I am more determined now than ever to get where I need to be. With determination and support I will get there.