Today is good Friday and for me this is a somber day. It is the day that Christ died for me. I always reflect on this day. I certainly have had much to reflect on this year. So many things going on in my life.
The loss of the band, which a month ago seemed like the worse possible thing I could go through, now seems like it was for the best. I am no longer in pain, and I am well focused on the rest of this journey. I realize now that the band gave me the confidence to succeed. It gave me the will to follow a program for a very long time. Yes, the restriction helped, but honestly, I PB'd far more often than not, and for me that is an eating disorder. I am glad to be done with that part of it. I no longer have to hope that last bite won't due me in. I now enjoy even more the taste of my food.
You might be asking, isn't she scared. Hell yes, I am scared. But I also know that I have inside of me, what I need to succeed. I need to stay the course of healthy choices and keep my eye on exercise and incorporating it at every turn. No excuse is a valid one, unless I am in a hospital bed. I am serious.
Sometimes, we make it so easy to sabotage ourselves, by allowing excuses of life to get in our way. I know this is a long haul. I am a slow loser. I am just going about living my life and being happy, and healthy.
I know that my body will eventually, let go of what it no longer needs. I am happy with Phentermine at this point. I have been on it a week, and I can honestly say I do not even think about food, not once. So it is working. I have no ill side effects of it at this point either. I am hopeful that the low dose to start for two weeks, will help those.
I am just walking at the moment, but I want to run again. I know I will, but I am still sore so I am waiting til that is gone. I woke up yesterday morning with a new softball size bruise on my lower abdomen. Not sure why it is just now appearing but it is ugly indeed. It goes to show why I have been so stinking sore.
I am looking forward to my weekend, lots of homework and time with family and friends.
What could be better indeed?
"For God So Loved The World That He Gave His Only Begotten Son, That Who So Ever Beliveth In Him Should Not Perish But Have Ever Lasting Life" JOHN 3:16
Easter Blessing to all of my BOOBS!
2 comments:
Happy Easter Kristn! I'm so glad you're in a good place without our band. You know that it helped, but you could gain or lose with it so ultimately it's up to you.
Happy Easter to you, Kristin! Very good to hear your positive attitude and determination - all things are possible!!
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