April and I am BETTER!!!!

It has been three weeks today that I had my band removed.  Wow, how time flies.  I have to say that for the most part I am feeling mostly back to my old self.  I still have tenderness and sometimes pain at the port site incision.  I expect that will be with me for awhile still.


I went back to work last Wednesday, and it never pays to be gone from work.  I cannot believe how behind I am.  When I left I had everything on my desk caught up.  Unfortunately, that was not the case upon my return.


I am not going to stress over work.  I will get it done.  I have made up my mind that stress is a horrible thing, and I have to take steps to reduce it in my life.  It is up to me to take it to God and let him help me with the stress.


I saw my APN on Thursday at the Dr. office and I began taking Phentermine.  She truly thinks this will help me get to goal, and she also believe that I have all the tools I need inside of me.  She said I am living a healthy life already, I log my food, I exercise regularly and I try to make good choice 94% of the time.  This is where it is at, in her opinion.  This is not about deprivation, or giving up food groups.  It is about MODERATION.


I let that sink in for awhile when she told me.  MODERATION, you know I have never been a person to do anything in moderation. So I have to focus on that with my food.  She said if you want something that is not all that healthy, then allow yourself three bites of whatever it is, and be done with it.  Or, do an extra workout for the extra calories.


It truly makes sense to me, I know that I never want to be that woman who used to eat out all of the time, who would grab to go food, because it was easy and tasted good....right?  


I wanted to tell all of you that I do still have restriction.  Is that not crazy.  I think either, I am still swollen in there after three weeks, or my esophagus is damaged from the band, or it just is constricted after five years of having the band around it.  I do not know, but I do know I always had restriction with my band even when it was not filled.  I have not gained a pound since I had the band removed.  Though I did gain 7 pounds before it was removed.  I have lost 4 of them since I began the Phentermine.  So we shall see.  I am just going to live, and love life, and see where it takes me.


I walked 3.47 miles with Max and Nichole yesterday and it was great, but my port site was on fire when I was done.  I will keep it up, because I can not no longer not work out, it is freaking making me crazy.


I want to thank you all for the support you showed me during this awful ordeal.  I love you all!